A few things about Cairns

Cairns (is)...

so hawt.
the place they throw people underwater, off planes, cliffs, rocks and what else they can think off like nobody else's business!
overflowing with hunkychunks, Melbs should really import some over!
filled with tourist, they could might as well be run by tourist for tourist!
so humid, you don't feel like doing anything.
an exciting place, you can get excited over nothing.
so hot, literally, you think you're back home.

Me.Now

think i broke a toe, have two badly bruised knees, a grazed elbow and the abs hurt!...but at least i can still sleep on my left!

on another note (wonders if anyone even visits anymore..but anyhow)the british are quite an interesting bunch and they are the type of fun people to hangout with....well the right ones of course..

omg it's only 5 and i can see the moon already!

Pssst..can you keep a secret?

1) ok you know how they usually have that big button for the pedestrian lights? let's just called them pedestrian lights. anywho, we'd all usually jaywalk and not care to wait for the lights to turn red especially when we're late for class because there aren't many cars after all. but then, i found out a few days ago, that pressing the pedestrian buttons can be really fun! the other when i walked back at about 4-ish, considered a peak period since its coming to winter and it gets dark really early, i decided to press the button coz there were a few cars passing. but the cars passed even before the lights turned red and so i crossed la. then after crossing, i looked back and saw....a long stream of cars waiting for the lights to change and that i was the only one crossing. HAHA. i bet they were somewhat pissed. oh what joy can pressing the pedestrian button bring!

2) I THINK I heard my neighbour making out just now....but then it sounded like a pigeon cooing...??HAHA maybe they weren't doing it after all..??

3) there was another one haha but i kinda forgot.

I dream a dream...

A sweet dream after a series of heart-wrenching nights
is like watching a happy ending fairytale,
you watch it,
feel it so real,
to your very own tale,
immersing yourself in the joy,

It feels so good
you wish to lie in bed
wish it never end.

The refreshing end from all the darkness, the fear,
no more tear,
no more pacing heart-beats
but once it ends,
you wake up
and realize it was all made up,
all the butterflies and sweet pies
were just in your head.

No matter how much you wish it true,
all you can do,
is to hold on to that feeling
of unexplainable joy,
oh, the enrapture from a sweet,
sweet dream.

Of the wild wild wind

Im so loving short hair now. you know what's the best thing?
it's that whenever the crazy wind from God knows where blows(especially from behind), hair wouldn't be racing forward ahead of me. also, wind blows = messy hair which with short hair = some kind of ...stylomilo?! hence,...
tip101: either have uber long hair or short hair whenever you're here.

Turkledome

Wanna know what i'm wishing right now??.....that i could watch scrubs all day long! yes i'd love to just do that! Scrubs' like my pills. I take them everyday, twice a day, supposingly once after lunch and another after dinner but quite often they are back-to-backs before dinner. Speaking of which pills, i better pop one now. bye!

(on the search for my own JD)

They call me Vic, Victoria Beckham.

Oooh...i love the surprises of unpacking. Like how, how good a packer you are depends on how good a stuffer you are. Every now and then, i'll find little surprises tucked here and there, and i'll be like oh i didn't know i had this, which is really fun! you should try it.

Disillusioned

I'm feeling like a superhero! you know the one that goes zip-zap-zappity everywhere. err what's the name...lightning?? i wonder which show was it in.

Pixie-fied!

pheww....i have officially finish unpacking all of my............clothes only! after 3 days here. tsktsk, real bad. i've so many clothes its practically spewing out of the cupboard. two hugeass bags full of clothes! i never knew i owned this much of clothes. a sense of guilt. i shall start to promise not to buy anymore for now! i'm now wondering... how would i be able to pack all these stuff when i leave?! oh no.

class starts tomorrow and i still don't know where are some of my stuff! i better continue unpacking.


p.s eh someone quick come online la...before the buzz dies. i've got something!!! :)

As we swing!

omgomgomgOH-AM-GEEEEE.........i'm such a bad blogger.quotebadbadbadddunqoute missjay. B-A-D.

if anyone should know, i keep on writing but don't seem to be able to hit 'publish post'.NOOO!!!!!

ok so let's see. hols has been a real turbulent ride: meaning goods with bads but overall funs, i thinks. first thing first, that I'm relieved to have gotten over being all over haha...the guy. ok the name's dan, if you would not have already known. but you should, coz i promised i would tell and reveal.haha...which i did, if you were listening :)

but then, over the hols, i kind of developed another obssession. my goodness...am i into older guys now?? oh,when we swing from one end to another!this' bad!real bad. like older guys, meaning...older guys! my, i sometimes can really ehrrdisgust myself. i think i do that pretty often. the thoughts, think-ed.tsktsktsk. boy, i tell you. i bet you do that too ;) *i shall/shall not reveal in time*

hence, it makes going back a mixed-emotional thing. i want to go back but i don't want to go back! how?

just the other night when i had a sleepover with my cuzzie...she kind of sent some realizations. we had trouble sleeping so we chatted til 3am. and when she woke up in the morning, she was so eager to tell me " Hey you know how you sleep last night??? you were like....and she explained" so basically, i was more than three quarters to her side, leaving her with less than a quarter! do the maths. and our face, just centimetres away. and that's on the biggest bed ever. poor her, had to sleep so straight, but fun and funny. so the realisation was...that i should be looking forward to some bruises on my knee for the next few months. she called me scissors leg.chopchop.lol.

cishh. i despise emomo posts.

hah. shopping can be so tiring. it's like a 9 to 5 job. but once you find the spark in it, everything starts to brighten up.
the best time of the year's here!
Merry Christmas everyone!

YOU.just a phase.

you.take up most of my thoughts.I can spend the whole day just staring at your pictures. even if they are candids or unglam ones. because you always take good shots. i just want to

I'm so ecstatic right now, i'm overwhelmed, this good feeling. but i don't know what's it about. prolly cause exams has just ended! wheeeee. tired and excited and relieved... but mostly relieved.


Have you ever wondered why in movies, parents always tuck their kids under comforters when you think hey it's so hot, why do you even need a comforter? now i know that, it's always cooling here, more so in the states or so. i'd appreciate a warm bed and comforter, warm from after the dryer. but now, the warmth is no longer appreciated. it's too darn warm now! summer's such an intruder. we want spring! spring spring spring!!

we are only human.
we don't get what we want and get what we don't want.
we desire what we don't have and when we get it, we are so doubtful.
sometimes i don't even understand.lol

Updates!Updates! Read it while it bakes!

It's been awhile, hasn't it? well, well, let's see what happened while we were away............nothing much really. oh how i despise when the brain freezes at spontaneous thoughts. as you all may have not know, my babe stopped functioning a couple of weeks ago. that would have been the toughest days if not for what God have planned, i'd say, and to thank Him for His plans and a lovely biggiebro. yes, if you've not guess, the lappie konk out all of a sudden! God knows what happened! and having to think that there'd be no connection to the world!? just the most horrendous thought! but thanks to biggiebro, we kinda figured out a way. and now that babe's back, i hope everything would be fine. oh she wasn't functioning as well as she was when she first arrived back into my arms! oh well, that's that. and for the record, everything was wiped out!

now, if you like, i'd give you a summary. we had a younger version of paul mccartney, for a unit called cost info. but the bigger surprise was, half way along the semester, i realized, i actually have siva as my cost info tutor! yes siva! as in our very own sikah. man, you guys should see the way she talks! i bet siva would win the best impersonator award. both of you are so much alike from the hair to the specs to the big smile to the height and of course you have it, she also have it: trademark long limbs! i think i've found your other twin, siva! however, of course, there's always the funny thing. it's the way she talks. don't really know where is she from, bangladesh? sri lanka? i have no idea. what i should have done was.... record a session of tute so that you guys can watch! maybe, i'll ask my friend to do that, just maybe! that would be fun!

next, we had ellen de generes for law and bert the bear as a tutor. this semester on the other hand (like essay only), i have a cross breed between dustin hoffman and kevin costner as the accounts lecturer, groff the gangsta as the tutor and uncle sam the fisherman for finance. the rest are really not famous.

hmm....oh yea we went to sydney, if you had not already know. freaking cold sydney! the weather here's really crazy. c-r-a-z-y! but it's for real! just the other day it suddenly turned warm but now its back to cool, which me like! they have real drizzle, REAL sun, R-E-A-L wind. real wind that could sweep you off your feet! it was once reported as strong as 70kmph. man you could kill with that!lol

oh and i wonder why displeasing, unsatisfying stuff that i'd bound to regret always happens in the midst of people i'd categorize as favourites?! why oh why??!

that's all for now, i guess. gotta catch up on sleep!

me loves and misses ma peeps, yo!


p.s a special request from a special friend: bao is obsessed with junsu. happy? ;)

you are the only one, whose head i'd want to rip off right now :)
oh no there's prolly a few, but you definitely top the list.

Paint me beautiful.

oh right, im back here in my not-very-comfortable black chair. but that's the only chair i've got, that's unless, i get another one. but ill put that aside, for now, ignore the hassle of going out getting the chair, stuffing it into the car, if not rolling it all the way bac home, onto the bus and train, God forbid if it rains, and the stares of passerby, and i know what they'll be thinking... newbie, rite. ughh, its horrible enough to imagine. so, put that aside, coz i made myself sit here, now at almost ONE AM, when im suppose to be sleeping already, ok i made myself sit here to write, of course. i actually planned to post during the hols but as you can see, its one week already.

first and foremost! i cannot agree more with you bao, about your 11 april post.haha. that's right. i think we are on almost the same boat. almost the same. the same type of boat but perhaps differently designed.teehee. maybe, your's more, goth and have chunky ornaments, while mine is... mine is... i don't even know what is it.bleh. you know, sometimes, you've just got to go against your bad-self ,which is almost always more powerful than the good :)haha.

i realized i say hey first. initiative,haha. but the rule is not to say hey too many a time in a day, not more than three, i would say. or you'll risk looking desperate, which you wouldn't want to, of course. the first time, say hey (the name) and perhaps a small chat. then the second, smile. the third hey again.haha. if you meet the fourth, just pretend you were too busy to notice. LOL. you know what, ill smile and chuckle inwards-ly to myself if i see... and remember this. crazy, i know!

just about the other day, i was too bored so, i decided to visit your blog, bao. and as i scroll and scroll, suddenly, i found myself staring at this picture. it looked familiar, but it didnt really clicked at a glance. but it did in seconds. hold on. now i remembered. i wasn't bored. i wanted to just get away for awhile from the gloom of tests and assgs, i think. so, yea im not exaggerating or what, but it was the post with my pic :). it doesn't really look like me. i can't believe im saying this. haha. but yea, maybe coz i've gotten used to me with short hair. and by the way, i dont' rememeber taking that photo. thanks a million, bao. coz it really did made my day. it was just there when i needed it :). btw, you don't have to purposely send snail mail over you know. its kinda expensive, i think. i know its really nice, but no, dont trouble yourself, okay. thank God, it was the other day that i decided to visit your blog, bao, coz it were to be today, i'd prolly missed that post, coz it won't be on front page.haha, just so you know.

oh speaking of visiting blogs, i've recently realized that this hidden, isolated, unpublicised little page has quite a few guests. silent angels, i would say. haha. so, just say a short hello unannonymously and no pseudonyms, of course. i know you want to, because pleasant surprises always delight me!lol.

i've yet to put up a chatbox, but for now, of course you know where to speak your voice.

alright, that's all for now!

p.s ive actually got a checklist on topics to write.haha.crazy, i know. gosh that was only two out of the whole list and that was long. and there's really no connection between title and content, if you realized.haha. tell me if you think there is. i just like the way it sounds! enough for now. goodnite!

toilet.

i went to the toilet. latched the door behind me and sat down. looked up and almost right away, i caught "beyond the wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself". HAHAHA how funny is that??

(Idontblameanyone!!) Jumbled.

this couldn't be that tough could it? im trying to sort things out and fit the puzzle to its' place. im trying. i hate it when i wake up feeling all so... was it that i got up from the wrong side of the bed? ..no, there's only one side that i could get up from, coz the other's a wall. oh right, that's just an expression. sillyme. i wonder why i always feel like ....when im out. gosh, it suck. ive got to hold it together. im afraid when i could no longer do that, coz i know that would be really damn mortifying.

oh yea, you said i had a... look, but in fact i insisted that i was really tired, and i am. and you go on trying to cool me down? do you think i ever give a damn? think again.....no. come on, im a girl! :) oh perhaps you, yea. i recognize your voice even when i was here for only a week. i despise the way you look, on first encounter. but later on, thought that you aren't too bad actually. and then it became an obssession? oh no obssession is too big a word, it was more of like a fondness. i actually like you. i actually do! oh no, wait, i dont. i know what's this. its just the irky thing called infatuation which will fade sooner or later, which i reckon, the sooner the better. BUT, i want to know you. :)

you said, oh im just goin through a weird phase. oh come on, do you think its only you? maybe thats because, im good at concealing. do you think by asking are you ok and hearing oh im fine, means what it means? and stop asking how's it goin or how're you doin? i hate it searching for an answer or rather, forcing myself to say the stereotype, im fine, not too bad, bunkum. im not too sure whether i look forward to the day we sit and have a long get-to-know chat, but sure do want to know how it goes. hope i dont make a fool out of myself. but then again, im wondering, will it all happen, or is it just a mere rhetoric?

and oh to another you, you truly, absolutely, certainly disgust me.

im wasting my time. damn.

randomrandom

WHY, do i always screw things up?? especially these types...:s
was that something? was that even a hint? oh no, its prolly me again! paranoia.
let's just see in the next couple of days. gimme more!
ok, on another note, we scored three out of fours! YAY!! haha
oh i've started cooking, and i found out that im not too bad a cook.LOL. tengah mencungkil bakat terpendam*syok sendiri* oh no, the trick is, to add the two sauces together and voila! you get a pretty decent dish! its the secret!
and, i also realized that my english's rotten-ing. so, perhaps blogging might help. i hope it does.

p/s let's just hope no unwanted or self-invited or smartypants finds out about this.